Its common, we all know that a lot of things are happening in our lives. Every single minute, hours and days, new things happens. We see things happens. We witness events, we create something, we experience something, be it repeated or new. We meet new people, we observe different characters everyday. From the people we know, to commoners we see daily.
Little did we know that sometimes, these ordinary experiences actually can make us realize things about ourselves, that we do not know. Or rather, makes us go through an experience, or feel an emotion, just by looking, or observing, these ordinary events happening around us. Let me give u an example.
I was normally waiting for the bus to interchange, early in the morning to go to school. I saw this educated career-women-like mom, with a kid around 3-4 years old. She always wear a grumpy face on her face, of all the days that they were around, never a day i fail to see her, scolding her son, or being EXTREMELY stern to him, over small issues. Really small issues. I look at that scenario, and i asked myself. Why is she so angry to her son over small things? Even if she is tryna discipline her son, it couldn't have been so..bad. Then i thought. Does she even love her son? Or was she just throwing her anger to her son, due to his father, which was her husband. Why sould she marry in the first place if she's always having a fit with her husband. Assumptions assumptions. Many questions running through my head. And i started to question myself, how would I be if i become a mother? If i start a family? If i become someone's wife?
This leads me to talk about family.
Family: I wouldn't wanna say anything much about my family as no family is perfect. Even mine. And i shall cherish whatever that i have presently as i was always reminded that there are other children or teenagers out there that suffers even worst then me, and in worst family situations compared to mine. Thus, all i can do, is appreciate whatever that im blessed with.
All i know that when i start a family, and have children, i want them to be given the best and only the best. And have the love of both parents, plus having a memorable pleasant childhood. Seeing their parents happy at all times. This lead me to another question. How can i be happy? That is provided if my spouse/partner was everything that i ever wanted. That would have made me happy. I would need a very strong relationship with my partner to make the family bloom well.
And thus, this leads me to talk about relationship.
Relationship: It is never easy to be in a relationship. You all know what I’m talking about. Those BGR kind. I have friends and acquaintance that are easily in and out of a relationship. I just do not understand why is it that eay sfor them to be in one? And that easy to fall out of it? I absofuckinglutely do not, understand.
People, being in a relationship, even before you are in it or u make that choice to be in it, there are a few factors for us to consider. We do not suka suka just go into the relationship just like that. You might never know that would it end one day? It is tiring to keep dating and finding the right one, but u need to do that, unfortunately, but still, it needs a lot of consideration. Do we actually love the person that we wanna be in the r/s with? Do we think that this person is actually the one? The right one? The one that you would marry? The one that you would spent the rest of your life with? The one that be with you till your very last breath? This ain’t a fairytale. It is a fact, a reality fact that we all must consider.
There’s a saying, saying goodbye is always the hardest. Same goes for ending a r/s. Especially if that relationship is the one that you are serious in, and expect to go very far. It crashes you down when it all ended, not the way you wanted. But we all gotta move on. But this cannot go on and on. Being at this age, I already have the thought that the next r/s I am going to be in, is it really THE one? I can’t tell. And I dun wanna risk being it it, knowing that it will all end, leaving me, devastated. I don’t wish too.
Being in a r/s is not easy, people. Commitments, is number one issue. Followed by trust, honesty, giving in, blablabla. You all know. I bet you all do. And it sucks seeing it always not working out and it ending. Thus, for me, I have to consider very carefully, being in a relationship. I want to have long lasting relationship, those that will bring me all the way to marriage, and the one that works out well and happy, even after marriage. I was told, who wants to be in a relationship that we know would end one day? I don’t want my relationship to end that easily. Thus, making choices like this, is hard, and needs a long deep thought. Thus explaining me still being single, right to this very point of time.
As for now, a piece of advice, let’s just live life. And do things that we all have always wanted to do. At the same time, expose our thoughts and widen our social circle. Sometimes, having seeing or knowing people around us, our expectation of our partner rises. Making it even difficult for us to chose the right partner.
Ala. I say only la! But wanna do difficult. Hahahahahahha. Aiyah. Im just too lazy to think about all this. Just some mind thoughts that I wish to share.
Think about it people. It really isn’t that easy. Im off readers.
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